No walking today either

I am pretty damn sure that I bruised my heel. I am still limping today. If I limp tomorrow I am going to make a doctor appointment. This is incredibly frustrating to me. I want to walk but walking in pain seems stupid.
I look like a goon limping around. Just getting up in the morning killed me. I had to hold on to the wall just to make it to the restroom. It is better if I walk on the ball of my foot but really do I want to do that all day long? Putting on my shoe puts pressure right on the spot that hurts and is fire red. Not a good combo.

The honey is off for the next three days. That means limited internet for me. Which sucks. Cause I am in love with the internet you know.
*hugs monitor*

We don't do anything on a holiday weekend. We tend to go places the weekend before or the weekend after. There is no traffic then.

I may end up going and getting my grandmother next week. Bring her down here for a visit. Next month she has cataract surgery so I may need to go up and stay with her a few days then.

Let me share a funny with you that happened yesterday morning. I shared it with my Lost board buddies but figured I would share it here too.
After being awake for so damn long I crawled back in bed a little while before the honey had to get up. (Remember I was up at 4am with foot pain?) I must have fallen asleep right when he got up because I remember dreaming that I touched something and my hair went all static like this.

I saw myself in a mirror and started cracking up.
The honey woke me up and asked me what I was laughing at. (I don't think he realized I was asleep)
I remember saying Fuzzy hair then turning back over.

I was laughing in my sleep. I didn't know I could laugh in my sleep!

Well I have to go to the store and this post was all over the place anyway lol

Motivation is a funny thing

I have been walking since Monday. For 30 minutes or a little over a mile and a quarter. It has actually been fun.
Except last night at 4am I woke up feeling like my foot was on fire. It was excruciating. The area between the bottom of my foot and my ankle directly on the back of my foot hurt like a bitch. I ended up getting out of bed to take some asprin and not being able to sleep for almost two hours.
Today it hurts to walk.
The problem is I want to walk. I don't want to lose the motivation that I have. Hell how often do we actually get motivation to exercise?
But I just can't do it. It hurts to freaking bad and I don't want to make it worse. So I gave myself the day off. And I feel horrible. It sucks that I had to do this.
Stupid foot didn't hurt when I went to bed. UGH.
I hope the motivation doesn't go away.

The other motivation problem I am having is the job hunt. I have looked for a job every day for over five months with no results. It makes it very hard to even want to look. I have to force myself lately.
I have this whole why bother nothing is going to come of it mind frame which isn't good. But I need a job. But I just feel tired.
I have lost all motivation to search. I haven't stopped searching but there is no motivation what so ever in my body. I know I need money. I know I need a job. I know the only way to get a job is to search but.... it just plain feels like I am wasting my time. Sigh.

The house is getting cleaner though!