Have you noticed that the older you get the harder it is to make friends? In fact in "real" life I pretty much have one best friend. I have tons of online friends that I have talked to for years but only one that I actually leave my house to visit with.
See I seem to have incredibly bad luck with making friends. I make a friend and then something happens like they move, run away with someone they met on the internet, sleep with my boyfriend or just plain stop talking to me for no reason. Growing up I moved constantly so I have no buddies that I grew up with.
For a while there I decided screw it I don't need a friend.
Then... I found out one of my Lost board buddies actually lived close to me. Close enough that I could meet her.
As we planned our first meeting at the mall I have to admit to being frightened. What if even after all this time of talking to each other online we didn't like each other? What if after meeting me she never wanted to talk to me again. What if she was a giant man and not a woman LMAO!!!
Lucky for me none of that happened. In fact she has become the best friend I have ever had. I was incredibly lucky and blessed.
But getting to know Sazy.... Creating a new friendship... I have to admit it is exactly like I remember dating to be.
You make plans to do something. Not a movie at first because you need to talk and get to know each other. You get the nerves as you wait for the day to arrive that you are going to the museum or where ever you decided.
Are we going to have fun? Will she think this is stupid?
You go to lunches. You go to public places. You figure each other out.
See! Dating a friend.
I guess if you ended up really not liking each other it would be like a break up right? One of those slowly stop talking things?
During Sazy and my "dating" stage we found out we had so much in common. A love of things ancient. A love of museums. A fondness for not doing what we are suppose to do. A habit of touching things we aren't suppose to. A love of hunting treasure.
Now... I consider her my best friend.
Do I have the desire to start "dating" anyone else? Not really. I feel like I won the lotto and I really don't think that will happen again.
But now I know that talking to someone for years on the internet gives me a different insight to them. You have so much more to talk about. You all ready have a bit of common ground. So maybe I will meet some of the others I talk to at some point. I mean I did meet another friend with Sazy that visited here from Tennessee and that worked out all right.
I have to admit to having a little envy for those people who seem to have this group of buddies that they grew up with. But I just need to realize that will never be me.
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Friday, April 9, 2010
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
It's the most Crazy time of the year
Yesterday I finished up the wrapping. I have a giant 50 inch tv (the honey's nephew's gift for his parents) and my grandmothers gift left to wrap. I baked like a mad woman. Cookies and orange cranberry bread. I got all my stuff ready to go to grandmas and I applied for about 6 jobs.
Yes, I am still applying even though it is the week before Christmas. I am hoping that some how some way maybe one of these people I have sent a resume to in the last month will call me after the first of the year. It honestly feels as if I have been out of work for a year. I know it has only been 5 months but that is 5 months to long if you ask me.
My news station was showing a group of people last night who are also out of work. Want to panic? Watch them document people who have been out of work since January and haven't heard a word either.
Not having a job is like being in hell. UGH!
Here are some of the decorations in my house. I still cannot for the life of me figure out how in the hell to shrink the pictures so if you want to see the whole thing you will need to click on them. (Please excuse the white fur on the rug. I have a giant white lab and a long haired white cat who shed like mad all day long)
PLEASE CLICK PICTURES TO GET WHOLE EFFECT
You will notice the lack of ornaments on the bottom of the tree. With two indoor cats and a lab who has no idea she has a tail it is just easier to not add them then to have to pick them up every day.
And here is the outside
Now there are decorations in every room but that is the living room and outside.
Ok so now that I have had my kindle since the 3rd of this month and played with it a bit I feel a tad bit better in reviewing it.
It freaking ROCKS!!!!
I had 8 paperback books (had just went on a shopping spree right before it arrived) so I decided to do side by side. Read a book, read a kindle book, read a book, read a kindle book.
There is something to be said for each type. A paperback has a great hand feel. It is like an old friend. Easy to carry around. We all know how good a book feels in our hands so I don't need to go on and on.
Now for the kindle. There are a few pluses that an actual book doesn't have.
1. You can set it on the counter as you are cooking dinner (or any other activity) and read without having to hold it. The ability for it to lay flat without me having to resort to a salt shaker or some other item to hold it open is a great plus for me.
2. As soon as you turn it on it goes directly to where you left off in the book you are reading. (I know bookmarks or dog earred pages do the same thing but I find it cool)
3. No more CRAP this is the second in a series... in less then 60 seconds I can have the first book.
4. The battery life is wonderful. Like I said I got mine on the 3rd of this month. Charged it once. Have picked it up almost every day and STILL have 1/2 of my battery power. And it only takes about 5-10 minutes to give it a full charge.
In the mall the other day I picked up the Sony ebook just out of curiosity. Don't bother. It feels chinsy. And the buttons suck.
Sometimes however you do run across a new book that is not in kindle version yet. I just picked up the real book instead lol
The honey has decided to go to my grandmothers with me on the 24th. Which while being wonderful and nice kind of irritated me at the same time.
I like to have plans. I like to know my plans in advance. For him to switch back and forth really irritated me. Don't get me wrong I wanted him to go but he literally changed his mind 7 times in the last two weeks. So now instead of me driving up tomorrow I am going to drive up on the 24th (The day we are having Christmas) with him. It makes me feel like I don't get enough time with grandma. But then here comes my buddy Sazy saying she will take off Monday so we can play up there. (She will be driving me home)
I swear to you I hit the friend lottery when I met her online all those years ago.
OH!!!! Speaking of friend lottery. We totally picked a fight in Costco over the weekend. No I don't normally do that. But... well here is Sazy's description.....
Okay, I started it, Jody finished it.
We were walking to the front of the store with a cart load. Costco was packed of course. I was following Jody and a woman pushing a cart were behind me. She kept try to get around us and there was no room for her to get around us and she was pushing on me and pushing on me until I said to Jody:
Wait a minute and let this lady go by.....
Lady: Thank you.
....before she breaks my foot.
As she passes us she snots:
I wasn't going to break your foot!
Now she's in front and Jody says cheerfully:
That's okay, I'll break her foot.
So the lady stops and fixes Jody with an evil look, to which she puts her hand up and replies:
Yeah I said it. So?
How rude! says the lady and takes off.
The guy behind me says, She was being rude, not you guys.
Thank you, I tell him.
So that's all, but we laughed about picking a fight and not really getting it but we could have kicked her ass.
LMAO!!!! *twirls in my evil lady outfit.
Yes, I am still applying even though it is the week before Christmas. I am hoping that some how some way maybe one of these people I have sent a resume to in the last month will call me after the first of the year. It honestly feels as if I have been out of work for a year. I know it has only been 5 months but that is 5 months to long if you ask me.
My news station was showing a group of people last night who are also out of work. Want to panic? Watch them document people who have been out of work since January and haven't heard a word either.
Not having a job is like being in hell. UGH!
Here are some of the decorations in my house. I still cannot for the life of me figure out how in the hell to shrink the pictures so if you want to see the whole thing you will need to click on them. (Please excuse the white fur on the rug. I have a giant white lab and a long haired white cat who shed like mad all day long)
PLEASE CLICK PICTURES TO GET WHOLE EFFECT
You will notice the lack of ornaments on the bottom of the tree. With two indoor cats and a lab who has no idea she has a tail it is just easier to not add them then to have to pick them up every day.
And here is the outside
Now there are decorations in every room but that is the living room and outside.
Ok so now that I have had my kindle since the 3rd of this month and played with it a bit I feel a tad bit better in reviewing it.
It freaking ROCKS!!!!
I had 8 paperback books (had just went on a shopping spree right before it arrived) so I decided to do side by side. Read a book, read a kindle book, read a book, read a kindle book.
There is something to be said for each type. A paperback has a great hand feel. It is like an old friend. Easy to carry around. We all know how good a book feels in our hands so I don't need to go on and on.
Now for the kindle. There are a few pluses that an actual book doesn't have.
1. You can set it on the counter as you are cooking dinner (or any other activity) and read without having to hold it. The ability for it to lay flat without me having to resort to a salt shaker or some other item to hold it open is a great plus for me.
2. As soon as you turn it on it goes directly to where you left off in the book you are reading. (I know bookmarks or dog earred pages do the same thing but I find it cool)
3. No more CRAP this is the second in a series... in less then 60 seconds I can have the first book.
4. The battery life is wonderful. Like I said I got mine on the 3rd of this month. Charged it once. Have picked it up almost every day and STILL have 1/2 of my battery power. And it only takes about 5-10 minutes to give it a full charge.
In the mall the other day I picked up the Sony ebook just out of curiosity. Don't bother. It feels chinsy. And the buttons suck.
Sometimes however you do run across a new book that is not in kindle version yet. I just picked up the real book instead lol
The honey has decided to go to my grandmothers with me on the 24th. Which while being wonderful and nice kind of irritated me at the same time.
I like to have plans. I like to know my plans in advance. For him to switch back and forth really irritated me. Don't get me wrong I wanted him to go but he literally changed his mind 7 times in the last two weeks. So now instead of me driving up tomorrow I am going to drive up on the 24th (The day we are having Christmas) with him. It makes me feel like I don't get enough time with grandma. But then here comes my buddy Sazy saying she will take off Monday so we can play up there. (She will be driving me home)
I swear to you I hit the friend lottery when I met her online all those years ago.
OH!!!! Speaking of friend lottery. We totally picked a fight in Costco over the weekend. No I don't normally do that. But... well here is Sazy's description.....
Okay, I started it, Jody finished it.
We were walking to the front of the store with a cart load. Costco was packed of course. I was following Jody and a woman pushing a cart were behind me. She kept try to get around us and there was no room for her to get around us and she was pushing on me and pushing on me until I said to Jody:
Wait a minute and let this lady go by.....
Lady: Thank you.
....before she breaks my foot.
As she passes us she snots:
I wasn't going to break your foot!
Now she's in front and Jody says cheerfully:
That's okay, I'll break her foot.
So the lady stops and fixes Jody with an evil look, to which she puts her hand up and replies:
Yeah I said it. So?
How rude! says the lady and takes off.
The guy behind me says, She was being rude, not you guys.
Thank you, I tell him.
So that's all, but we laughed about picking a fight and not really getting it but we could have kicked her ass.
LMAO!!!! *twirls in my evil lady outfit.
Monday, June 29, 2009
A true and kind friend
You know I have a great friend. I swear I am surprised I didn’t send her running and screaming. Not many people would do what she did for me today. And hold it together like she did in the face of me losing it a bit. Or maybe losing it a lot.
My uncle is not doing well. His words are beginning to slur and he needed his first morphine today. But his wife needed the power of attorney signed for his medical.
Oh shit.. sheesh why is this so fucking hard for me. I can’t even type this without squirting damn tears out of my eyes.
He does not want any resuscitation effort made. Well the honey was suppose to witness and sign the DNR form last night but everyone got to talking and he left this morning for 2 days without signing the paper. David was better yesterday I think everyone expected there to be time. With the change in him today she needed the paper signed. It needed to not be a relative. That is where my poor friend came in. She had just come over for our Monday movie night instead she ended up witnessing a piece of paper that when handed to me felt like my heart fell out of my chest.
Seriously something about that paper kicked my ass. For the first time in front of him I began to well up and lose it. I tried really really hard to pull it together. It was rough. My poor friend. God I feel awful for having her have to do that. But thankful that she was willing too.
How do you thank someone for something like that? How do you tell someone how very much that meant to you? How very sorry she was put in that place? How wonderful a feeling to know that someone would do that for you and for David?
God I hated that piece of paper. To me that paper was death. Holding it was pure hell and all I wanted was it out of my hand. Now. And she signed it for me and David and Sue. I love her for that.
I hate this. I honestly hate this. I am so not freaking coping well at all.
My uncle is not doing well. His words are beginning to slur and he needed his first morphine today. But his wife needed the power of attorney signed for his medical.
Oh shit.. sheesh why is this so fucking hard for me. I can’t even type this without squirting damn tears out of my eyes.
He does not want any resuscitation effort made. Well the honey was suppose to witness and sign the DNR form last night but everyone got to talking and he left this morning for 2 days without signing the paper. David was better yesterday I think everyone expected there to be time. With the change in him today she needed the paper signed. It needed to not be a relative. That is where my poor friend came in. She had just come over for our Monday movie night instead she ended up witnessing a piece of paper that when handed to me felt like my heart fell out of my chest.
Seriously something about that paper kicked my ass. For the first time in front of him I began to well up and lose it. I tried really really hard to pull it together. It was rough. My poor friend. God I feel awful for having her have to do that. But thankful that she was willing too.
How do you thank someone for something like that? How do you tell someone how very much that meant to you? How very sorry she was put in that place? How wonderful a feeling to know that someone would do that for you and for David?
God I hated that piece of paper. To me that paper was death. Holding it was pure hell and all I wanted was it out of my hand. Now. And she signed it for me and David and Sue. I love her for that.
I hate this. I honestly hate this. I am so not freaking coping well at all.
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