Yup today was the day I had to go to the dentist. All $1,177 worth of crown is now in my mouth... well temporary crown anyway. The new one gets put in on the 21rst. That was a major hit to my pocketbook. Especially since I no longer have any money coming in. I seriously thought about postponing the appointment. But then I thought I better not. After all right now I didn't need a root canal. Could you imagine the cost had I needed that too! UGH.
So I went and yes I cried. No matter how hard I try to be a normal person once I am in the chair I kind of lose it a bit. There seems to be nothing I can do to stop it either. It is down right embarrassing.
So now at least that is done. Thank god.
So now I worry. I worry about having no cash coming in. I worry about my bills. My bank account. Groceries. Gas. UGH. There is no way not to worry. It makes me feel helpless. And stupid. And I know I am not stupid. I honestly cannot look any harder for a job then I am all ready. There is nothing more that I can do then what I am doing. Although after I found out my unemployment benefits would be cut off I did start to apply for part time work to. I figure I don't need my health care anymore. That will save me money. I would like to keep it but it is going to get to the point where it won't be worth it to me anymore. I will keep it for as long as I can but I won't allow myself to mourn when it is gone. After all it is my problem. I am fairly healthy after all.
I would really just like to get a job though. Is that really to much to ask?
I look at my bank account now and almost start to panic. What good does that do me? It is what it is right? UGH
I came back to add how SUPER EXCITED I am to have found a DAMN NAIL IN MY TIRE.