This sucks.
Now I have to go through the whole freaking unemployment thing again if I am even eligible for it. I should be but who the heck knows.
They told me I was a rock star and had mad work skills and they would give me a recommendation.
The boss also told me he was letting me go in front of everyone.
JOY>..... not.
I need to go lick some wounds for a while.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
I need to lance these frustrations
You know how when something bothers you it builds up and builds up to the point where when you think about it you can feel your nose sting and your eyes water? Welcome to where I am at.
I had such high expectations for this job. I was so happy to get it I did a little happy dance of joy. I grinned so wide all of my teeth showed. That was exactly 16 days ago.
Now I want to say sorry for all the bitching I have done in my blog lately before getting onto the spewing of frustrations lol. I am sorry. This blog has just not worked exactly the way I thought it was. I thought I would have a upbeat happy blog. Who knew I would have a ..... ummm who the hell knows what kind of blog this is.
Anywhoooo..........
Today I get to go into work at 9am. My actual start time when hired was 8am. 8am to 4:30. I don't work them every day. In fact I have no idea how long I will work on any given day. This frustrates me. I am a planner. I like to know exactly how much my check is going to be so that I can plan out my bills. I like to know exactly what time I will be at work and leave work each day so I can plan out things like grocery shopping or cooking dinner.
I mean if I know I am going to leave for home at 2:45 on Thursday (yup that is what happened yesterday)I would plan to do my errands that day instead of doing it after work Wednesday. I would plan on making something that takes a little longer for dinner instead of the easy dinners we have on the days I get home at 5pm.
Instead I feel as though I am in some kind of limbo land and it just is plain not working for me. It makes me tense and antsy.
Shall I walk you through yesterday?
I pull up to work at 8am, get out of the car and walk in the door. Before I even sit down the estimator says don't get comfortable we need you to head over to Safeway and pick up some half and half since we are out.
Fine. I hop back into the car and drive over to Safeway. While I am there I decide what the hell I am going to get a few donuts for everyone at work. So I pick them up in the bakery and head back to work. I set them down and tell everyone to have one. No one moves. I mean this is a group of men and by the end of the day only one donut was gone. WTF.
I do the morning tasks I have given myself. I make some phone calls. File some stuff and run out of things to do. They send me to Staples to pick up some reams of paper and highlighters. I get back and rearrange the estimators stupid bookshelf.
Seriously did he really need to move the two bottom shelf stuff on to the two top shelves?
At that point I went on my half an hour lunch. Came back and asked the estimator for something to do. (something I am seriously sick to death of asking by the way.)
He gives me a list of plans he wants printed out. Only I have to print the first page, hand it to him so he can highlight the pages he wants printed and go back to my desk to print them out. At the 4th page I hand him to highlight he gives out this frustrated sigh and says I am keeping him from doing his job. WTF you gave me this project dude. Within 15 minutes of that I was sent home and told not to come in until 9 today.
I cannot tell you the level of embarrassment and anger that I felt towards the estimator when he told me I was keeping him from his job.
I cannot tell you the sense of disappointment I had driving home. The sadness that my stupid job sucked so damn bad that I dreaded going. That I felt such disappointment driving home. The sense of... failure. Yes my job makes me feel like a damn fucking failure. And trust me I know I am not.
I walk into that office feeling like a pest. I have gotten to the point where I feel like an ass for asking for something to do. Seriously how screwed up is that? I don't get satisfaction from a job completed. Instead I get a OH shit what in the hell can I do so I don't have to ask for something to do feeling.
It is wearing me down.
The only thing I can think to do is apply for other jobs. But how in the hell do you go on a interview when working for another company. And my company is 25 minutes away from my city where most interviews would probably be. And remember how freaking long it took me to get THIS interview. I feel like my leg is caught in a bear trap and I am just about frustrated enough to put my head down and chew my own foot off.
To be totally honest if things don't change soon I am not sure what I will do. Will I wake up one day and just roll over and go back to sleep? I mean I am all ready to the point of moping to my truck when it is time to leave.
Will I stay in the silent zone. Put my head down and become a good little no feelings no talking non human robot worker like everyone else?
I am so sad. And so fucking angry.
I had such high expectations for this job. I was so happy to get it I did a little happy dance of joy. I grinned so wide all of my teeth showed. That was exactly 16 days ago.
Now I want to say sorry for all the bitching I have done in my blog lately before getting onto the spewing of frustrations lol. I am sorry. This blog has just not worked exactly the way I thought it was. I thought I would have a upbeat happy blog. Who knew I would have a ..... ummm who the hell knows what kind of blog this is.
Anywhoooo..........
Today I get to go into work at 9am. My actual start time when hired was 8am. 8am to 4:30. I don't work them every day. In fact I have no idea how long I will work on any given day. This frustrates me. I am a planner. I like to know exactly how much my check is going to be so that I can plan out my bills. I like to know exactly what time I will be at work and leave work each day so I can plan out things like grocery shopping or cooking dinner.
I mean if I know I am going to leave for home at 2:45 on Thursday (yup that is what happened yesterday)I would plan to do my errands that day instead of doing it after work Wednesday. I would plan on making something that takes a little longer for dinner instead of the easy dinners we have on the days I get home at 5pm.
Instead I feel as though I am in some kind of limbo land and it just is plain not working for me. It makes me tense and antsy.
Shall I walk you through yesterday?
I pull up to work at 8am, get out of the car and walk in the door. Before I even sit down the estimator says don't get comfortable we need you to head over to Safeway and pick up some half and half since we are out.
Fine. I hop back into the car and drive over to Safeway. While I am there I decide what the hell I am going to get a few donuts for everyone at work. So I pick them up in the bakery and head back to work. I set them down and tell everyone to have one. No one moves. I mean this is a group of men and by the end of the day only one donut was gone. WTF.
I do the morning tasks I have given myself. I make some phone calls. File some stuff and run out of things to do. They send me to Staples to pick up some reams of paper and highlighters. I get back and rearrange the estimators stupid bookshelf.
Seriously did he really need to move the two bottom shelf stuff on to the two top shelves?
At that point I went on my half an hour lunch. Came back and asked the estimator for something to do. (something I am seriously sick to death of asking by the way.)
He gives me a list of plans he wants printed out. Only I have to print the first page, hand it to him so he can highlight the pages he wants printed and go back to my desk to print them out. At the 4th page I hand him to highlight he gives out this frustrated sigh and says I am keeping him from doing his job. WTF you gave me this project dude. Within 15 minutes of that I was sent home and told not to come in until 9 today.
I cannot tell you the level of embarrassment and anger that I felt towards the estimator when he told me I was keeping him from his job.
I cannot tell you the sense of disappointment I had driving home. The sadness that my stupid job sucked so damn bad that I dreaded going. That I felt such disappointment driving home. The sense of... failure. Yes my job makes me feel like a damn fucking failure. And trust me I know I am not.
I walk into that office feeling like a pest. I have gotten to the point where I feel like an ass for asking for something to do. Seriously how screwed up is that? I don't get satisfaction from a job completed. Instead I get a OH shit what in the hell can I do so I don't have to ask for something to do feeling.
It is wearing me down.
The only thing I can think to do is apply for other jobs. But how in the hell do you go on a interview when working for another company. And my company is 25 minutes away from my city where most interviews would probably be. And remember how freaking long it took me to get THIS interview. I feel like my leg is caught in a bear trap and I am just about frustrated enough to put my head down and chew my own foot off.
To be totally honest if things don't change soon I am not sure what I will do. Will I wake up one day and just roll over and go back to sleep? I mean I am all ready to the point of moping to my truck when it is time to leave.
Will I stay in the silent zone. Put my head down and become a good little no feelings no talking non human robot worker like everyone else?
I am so sad. And so fucking angry.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Still sort of frustrated.
So it goes like this. If I have work I get to work 8 hours. If I don't have work I have to go home.
What that means is something that should take me 5 minutes is going to take me an hour. I will get all my hours if I have to pretend to be reading something while really drawing pictures in my mind. Seems stupid to make a person work slower... not that they probably expect that but that is what they are going to get.
Yesterday I created a purchase order tracking system, called all outstanding p.o's and got their arrival dates. Created the spreadsheet that everyone could look at. Finished that about 2 hours then spent the next two playing with colors on the spreadsheet. Should I use red for delivered or orange... highlight everything red, change to orange, change back to red.
Screw it.
It totally goes against my work ethic but so does not getting paid for 8 hours.
Speaking of... Last week was paid short. That is a bummer.
I am creating my own job it seems LMAO.
I got a call from the second head dude Dave today to give me some information for the boss. He then proceeded to ask me if they were keeping me busy. I was shocked into silence for a minute and said sort of. He told me that he was afraid to give up some stuff that he really needs to hand off due to the fact that people leave a lot. Then proceeded to tell me what a great job I was doing and how excited he was at how organized I am. And how he was looking forward to finally handing over stuff.
Tomorrow I have a task from the estimator Tim. See I am out of work yet again. Minus a few phone calls I have to make so I asked him for something to do tomorrow when I come in.
So.......... I get to rearrange his book shelf. He wants row number 3 and 4 to be put where row 1 and 2 are and visa versa. Sounds THRILLING!!! Right?
*rolls eyes.
Operation Make Them Talk is in failure mode. Seems like when the Oregon dude is there no one will talk. Hours will go by in dead silence. The cone of silence is strong and very sturdy. So I have pretty much started just talking to myself sort of under my breath.
"ooo I should print that, I should go look for that file, I wonder if it is warm outside"
It is keeping me from going insane kind of...
I am giving this job a month. If it still sucks I am going to start looking again. And that sucks too.
What that means is something that should take me 5 minutes is going to take me an hour. I will get all my hours if I have to pretend to be reading something while really drawing pictures in my mind. Seems stupid to make a person work slower... not that they probably expect that but that is what they are going to get.
Yesterday I created a purchase order tracking system, called all outstanding p.o's and got their arrival dates. Created the spreadsheet that everyone could look at. Finished that about 2 hours then spent the next two playing with colors on the spreadsheet. Should I use red for delivered or orange... highlight everything red, change to orange, change back to red.
Screw it.
It totally goes against my work ethic but so does not getting paid for 8 hours.
Speaking of... Last week was paid short. That is a bummer.
I am creating my own job it seems LMAO.
I got a call from the second head dude Dave today to give me some information for the boss. He then proceeded to ask me if they were keeping me busy. I was shocked into silence for a minute and said sort of. He told me that he was afraid to give up some stuff that he really needs to hand off due to the fact that people leave a lot. Then proceeded to tell me what a great job I was doing and how excited he was at how organized I am. And how he was looking forward to finally handing over stuff.
Tomorrow I have a task from the estimator Tim. See I am out of work yet again. Minus a few phone calls I have to make so I asked him for something to do tomorrow when I come in.
So.......... I get to rearrange his book shelf. He wants row number 3 and 4 to be put where row 1 and 2 are and visa versa. Sounds THRILLING!!! Right?
*rolls eyes.
Operation Make Them Talk is in failure mode. Seems like when the Oregon dude is there no one will talk. Hours will go by in dead silence. The cone of silence is strong and very sturdy. So I have pretty much started just talking to myself sort of under my breath.
"ooo I should print that, I should go look for that file, I wonder if it is warm outside"
It is keeping me from going insane kind of...
I am giving this job a month. If it still sucks I am going to start looking again. And that sucks too.
Monday, March 22, 2010
ARGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Today......
3:45pm I walk into the bosses office for the 90000000 time to ask him to give me something to do. He asked me if I was done with everything I had.
Jody's head...."why yes that is why I am asking for something to do"
yes, I am.
The boss... ok then you can head out early today.
Jody's head "of course"
Ok.
The boss... We are probably going to move you to part time for the time being. At least until you get up and running and can work independently
Jody's head... WTF!! Work independently I have been you fucking ass... wait.. Part time!!!
Ummm by part time what do you mean and when would that start.
The boss.... We would start it right away I think. And I am thinking about 4 to 6 hours a day.
Jody's head... OMFG you ass. You ruined my unemployment and you are going to put me on part time that is going to be less then unemployment and what about insurance? Do I still get that? Let's see if I work 4 hours I get way less then unemployment.. 6 might be ok and I can go home and play on the board but Insurance!!!!
Opens mouth to ask about insurance and get a hard firm amount of time worked........
RING RING RING goes the bosses cell phone.
He picks it up and looks at it.
I have to take this. Have a nice evening Jody....
answers phone and starts talking.
Jody's head... oh shit... oh oh SPIN!!! oh crap.. what the hell am I going to do
Gets in car and goes home.
Later tonight...................
I was freaking flaming when I typed that out. I am much more mellow now. Still pissed don't get me wrong but more calm.
I am angry at the way he went about telling me like it was no big deal. Dude you aren't the one with the tiny paycheck.
Then I did what I do best. ... I made a list.
If I get 4 hours a day I am a little over a hundred dollars less a week then unemployment was.
If I get six hours a day I am 48 dollars over what unemployment was.
The man put me in a pretty screwy position here.
If he only gives me 4 hours a day I can't live on that but I can't quit.
Quitting = no unemployment.
If he gives me six plus insurance in three months that is fine. I can live on that. I have been for the last almost 8 months.
Minus the whole gas thing though.
However if it is 6 hours and no insurance not so good.
I am just plain frustrated right now. Why hire someone if you can't give them enough work.
How long is "for a while"
All questions I need to ask. I absolutely HATE that I am in the position to have to do that.
3:45pm I walk into the bosses office for the 90000000 time to ask him to give me something to do. He asked me if I was done with everything I had.
Jody's head...."why yes that is why I am asking for something to do"
yes, I am.
The boss... ok then you can head out early today.
Jody's head "of course"
Ok.
The boss... We are probably going to move you to part time for the time being. At least until you get up and running and can work independently
Jody's head... WTF!! Work independently I have been you fucking ass... wait.. Part time!!!
Ummm by part time what do you mean and when would that start.
The boss.... We would start it right away I think. And I am thinking about 4 to 6 hours a day.
Jody's head... OMFG you ass. You ruined my unemployment and you are going to put me on part time that is going to be less then unemployment and what about insurance? Do I still get that? Let's see if I work 4 hours I get way less then unemployment.. 6 might be ok and I can go home and play on the board but Insurance!!!!
Opens mouth to ask about insurance and get a hard firm amount of time worked........
RING RING RING goes the bosses cell phone.
He picks it up and looks at it.
I have to take this. Have a nice evening Jody....
answers phone and starts talking.
Jody's head... oh shit... oh oh SPIN!!! oh crap.. what the hell am I going to do
Gets in car and goes home.
Later tonight...................
I was freaking flaming when I typed that out. I am much more mellow now. Still pissed don't get me wrong but more calm.
I am angry at the way he went about telling me like it was no big deal. Dude you aren't the one with the tiny paycheck.
Then I did what I do best. ... I made a list.
If I get 4 hours a day I am a little over a hundred dollars less a week then unemployment was.
If I get six hours a day I am 48 dollars over what unemployment was.
The man put me in a pretty screwy position here.
If he only gives me 4 hours a day I can't live on that but I can't quit.
Quitting = no unemployment.
If he gives me six plus insurance in three months that is fine. I can live on that. I have been for the last almost 8 months.
Minus the whole gas thing though.
However if it is 6 hours and no insurance not so good.
I am just plain frustrated right now. Why hire someone if you can't give them enough work.
How long is "for a while"
All questions I need to ask. I absolutely HATE that I am in the position to have to do that.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Post #2 for today lol
LOOKIE!!!! I got an award!
So first let me say thank you to inannasstar for giving this to me. She is one of the newer blogs I found right before I headed off to my new job.
Of course since then I haven't commented on anyones blog and feel like a bitch because of that. I have read when I have gotten the chance which to be honest hasn't been to often. But I can feel myself getting back into a schedule and will start commenting more often I promise.
Look at the recipe she put up for a quiche (see I have been reading lol) It looks so freaking yummy.
Here are the rules of this award:
1. Thank the person who gave you this award.
2. Share 7 things about yourself.
3. Pass the award along to 15 bloggers who you have recently discovered and who you think are fantastic!
4. Contact the bloggers you've picked and let them know about the award.
1. CHECK!
2. hmmmmmm 7 things about me.
A. I freaking love horror. Horror books and movies. Not slasher Jason type movies but slow building ghostie type movies. Horror books in all shapes and sizes.
B. I have 4 cats and 2 dogs. All of which I treat like children... well minus the whole dressing up thing.
C. I met my best friend on a message board for the show Lost. *waves Hi to Sazy
D. I am half Italian and Half Irish.
E. I have been dating the same man for 20 years and no we aren't married yet.
F. I like to clean while wearing my ipod and I have been known to dance in the bathroom while scrubbing the toilet LMAO!!
G. Cooking is one of my passions. I like to start with a recipe for something but I will have to tweek it. I can never ever make it exactly the way it is written. For example... that quiche... gonna put asparagas in it. All ready planned lol.
3-4 ummmmm UMMMMMM I hate that part.... can I skip it? *looks on with puppy dog eyes lol
AND!!!
She also tagged me too.
Apparantly there is a new game of tag hitting the blogosphere. inannasstar from Ramblings of a Domestic Goddess tagged me.
The rules go like this:
Open your first photo file
Scroll to the 10th photo
Post the photo and tell the story behind it
Tag five more people
OMG!!! LMFAO. Ok I totally counted out my pictures. Pass a picture of me in a halloween costume.. pass my puppy... pass a creepy picture.... pass my kitty.... pass my grandma. And then I got to #10. Ready?
Obviously I have a off sense of humor. I copied this to my computer because I wanted to share with all my Lost board buddies. I could have sworn I deleted it. That is what I normally do when I post a funny. But I guess not.
As you can see I tend to ummmm find strange things amusing. This one actually made me laugh out loud. So I can't really share much about what was going on or what the picture is about since it seems to stand by itself.
And I am totally going to hand this off to at least three people. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT!!!!!
Gigi's Ramblings
Aunt of 14
Amy
if you are reading this blog.. YES YOU!!!! Consider yourself awarded and tagged. I will be looking at your blogs to see you know!
Should I be worried?
Today is day 6 of my new job and the second day they have sent me home early due to lack of work for me. Yesterday they sent me at 3 and today at 11:45.
If it were several months into my new employment I wouldn't worry but seriously it has only been 6 days. The boss told me I was salary last week but I never got anything in writing so I am a little worried about what my paycheck is going to look like. I honestly don't see to much that can keep me busy there but hopefully I am just not seeing it.
It gets pretty damn old walking into a office and asking "Do you have anything for me to do?" over and over and over again. I must have asked that about 20 times so far. Other friends have told me to go slow with the work I have to do. Thing is I can only go so slow. It isn't like they are giving me hard stuff.
In the past few days I had to move plans to a cart, clean out the bosses inbox, print plans, do take offs and file. There is nothing left to file, the inbox is sparkling with tabs, the plans are gone and I printed out everything I had to print out and take off. So now what?
Please please please let me get paid for this time off. If not I really screwed myself.
And my god is it QUIET in that office. Biting into a potato chip sounds like a freaking shot gun.
The only place I can park my car is right in front of the glass front building. That makes me uncomfortable like I am on display, so I have been walking around to the back of the building and sitting on a curb for my lunch. I have yet to have one single break. I miss sitting in my car and reading. :(
well wasn't this a pleasant blog entry? Sorry!!!
CRAP!! I got an award. I have to post it on here tomorrow. Are you excited for me LOL
If it were several months into my new employment I wouldn't worry but seriously it has only been 6 days. The boss told me I was salary last week but I never got anything in writing so I am a little worried about what my paycheck is going to look like. I honestly don't see to much that can keep me busy there but hopefully I am just not seeing it.
It gets pretty damn old walking into a office and asking "Do you have anything for me to do?" over and over and over again. I must have asked that about 20 times so far. Other friends have told me to go slow with the work I have to do. Thing is I can only go so slow. It isn't like they are giving me hard stuff.
In the past few days I had to move plans to a cart, clean out the bosses inbox, print plans, do take offs and file. There is nothing left to file, the inbox is sparkling with tabs, the plans are gone and I printed out everything I had to print out and take off. So now what?
Please please please let me get paid for this time off. If not I really screwed myself.
And my god is it QUIET in that office. Biting into a potato chip sounds like a freaking shot gun.
The only place I can park my car is right in front of the glass front building. That makes me uncomfortable like I am on display, so I have been walking around to the back of the building and sitting on a curb for my lunch. I have yet to have one single break. I miss sitting in my car and reading. :(
well wasn't this a pleasant blog entry? Sorry!!!
CRAP!! I got an award. I have to post it on here tomorrow. Are you excited for me LOL
Sunday, March 14, 2010
How did I do everything before?
I don't know if it is just the first week or what but I honestly don't know how I held my home life and my work life together before. I get up in the morning, go to work then come home to..... chaos. Gotta get dinner on the table. Want to play on the net. Want to read blogs. Gotta watch Survivor/Lost/American idol/Ghost hunters etc. There doesn't seem to be enough time to do it all.
But I know I did it before. Actually minus the blog but still. I handled it.
It is hard though. I hope it gets easier as time goes on.
My job has a few weird quirks that I have noticed. Like I haven't got one break yet. I get a lunch at random times but no breaks. No one ever leaves their desks. Ever. They even eat lunch at their desks. Who does that?
I am going to give it my all though. But if things continue to get stranger then they have been I might have to think about looking for other work in the future. I need breaks. I need people who talk. Nobody really talks there.
I guess I was used to a family like place. A job where everyone really cared about each other and talked to each other like family. This place... maybe it will come to that. I hope it does.
I haven't had time to read blogs. I am kind of bummed out about that. I need to figure out how to get the time for that. I think I am going to get me a fancy phone that has the internet and then I can use that to catch up on what I am missing.
The work is easy so far but the atmosphere is off. I wish I knew how to explain it.
I sincerely hope it is just new girl jitters.
I have spent a ton of freaking money in the past two weeks on clothes. More then I have spent in the past probably 3 years. I have purchased 7 pairs of pants. 10 shirts and 5 bras. Yes I know that is a lot of bras LMAO but 3 of them were on sale for $6.99 and I couldn't pass up their cuteness.
I did really need clothes though. After working for three years in the same place then staying home for almost 8 months I needed new stuff bad. I figure it will be another 3 years or so before I buy more. I HATE SHOPPING!!!!
Ok I am going to try to read some blogs before the honey starts calling me to go to bed.
But I know I did it before. Actually minus the blog but still. I handled it.
It is hard though. I hope it gets easier as time goes on.
My job has a few weird quirks that I have noticed. Like I haven't got one break yet. I get a lunch at random times but no breaks. No one ever leaves their desks. Ever. They even eat lunch at their desks. Who does that?
I am going to give it my all though. But if things continue to get stranger then they have been I might have to think about looking for other work in the future. I need breaks. I need people who talk. Nobody really talks there.
I guess I was used to a family like place. A job where everyone really cared about each other and talked to each other like family. This place... maybe it will come to that. I hope it does.
I haven't had time to read blogs. I am kind of bummed out about that. I need to figure out how to get the time for that. I think I am going to get me a fancy phone that has the internet and then I can use that to catch up on what I am missing.
The work is easy so far but the atmosphere is off. I wish I knew how to explain it.
I sincerely hope it is just new girl jitters.
I have spent a ton of freaking money in the past two weeks on clothes. More then I have spent in the past probably 3 years. I have purchased 7 pairs of pants. 10 shirts and 5 bras. Yes I know that is a lot of bras LMAO but 3 of them were on sale for $6.99 and I couldn't pass up their cuteness.
I did really need clothes though. After working for three years in the same place then staying home for almost 8 months I needed new stuff bad. I figure it will be another 3 years or so before I buy more. I HATE SHOPPING!!!!
Ok I am going to try to read some blogs before the honey starts calling me to go to bed.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Wow am I beat!
After sitting home for so long going to work was both wonderful and tiring. I was not used to thinking or doing things all day long without little breaks.
In fact I got no breaks just a lunch. I sat outside and looked at the pretty green hills and felt so out of it it wasn't even funny.
Last night I couldn't sleep. I lay there tossing and turning and just plain old not sleeping. It was a mixture of excitement and nervousness I guess.
I did learn my dog has some kind of insomnia herself. Walk walk walk...actually it was more like click click click on the wood floor at strange times during the night.
Also around three or so my cat decided to have a purr fest in my hair which of course made me wonder how the heck many times she has done that while I lay there sleeping. Full on head inside my hair and paws on both side of my head purring full steam ahead. It was actually kind of cute lol.
I started out the day with the office manager who showed me where all the pieces of the pie I would have my fingers in were. At around 11:30 she turned me over to the boss for some calls regarding open purchase orders. Lunch was around 12:15 for a half a hour of zoning completely out.
I was happy to learn that I will get paid weekly. It is so much easier to save and pay things that way.
I have to admit about 2:30 I was trying really hard to stay perky. All the perk had left my body. My body was dragging by 4:30 when it was time to go home.
I am looking forward to a full nights sleep. Hopefully tonight I will sleep. I may just take a damn sleeping pill and force the issue.
So my hours are 8 to 4:30 which means no commuting with the honey. Which in one way makes me happy because I get that time to myself to prepare for the day but on the other hand the savings in gas money would have been really nice.
Everyone there is really nice. They have a great bit of fun with each other. But let me tell you something right now. There is a lot of work done also. I expect to work my ass off. A lot.
There are about 4 main people in the office.
Me the project administrator
Tim the estimator
Mike the boss
Dave the Project manager
Terri the office manager.
And there is some other random person I haven't met yet who works every other week and commutes from Oregon!!
I did get to do a take off on a set of blueprints that I am 100% sure was a test. A test the boss expected me to fail. Without saying that of course but it was pretty damn obvious. When I handed him the completed set of prints with all the pretty tabs he hadn't asked for and the highlighted areas and quantities I swear to you his eyeballs sparkled and you could see how freaking excited he was to have someone who knew her shit.
*pats self on back gently so she doesn't get a big head.
I just was happy that what he asked me to do was easy. YAY ME!
So now all I want to do is crawl into my bed. And sleep. And do it all over again tomorrow.
In fact I got no breaks just a lunch. I sat outside and looked at the pretty green hills and felt so out of it it wasn't even funny.
Last night I couldn't sleep. I lay there tossing and turning and just plain old not sleeping. It was a mixture of excitement and nervousness I guess.
I did learn my dog has some kind of insomnia herself. Walk walk walk...actually it was more like click click click on the wood floor at strange times during the night.
Also around three or so my cat decided to have a purr fest in my hair which of course made me wonder how the heck many times she has done that while I lay there sleeping. Full on head inside my hair and paws on both side of my head purring full steam ahead. It was actually kind of cute lol.
I started out the day with the office manager who showed me where all the pieces of the pie I would have my fingers in were. At around 11:30 she turned me over to the boss for some calls regarding open purchase orders. Lunch was around 12:15 for a half a hour of zoning completely out.
I was happy to learn that I will get paid weekly. It is so much easier to save and pay things that way.
I have to admit about 2:30 I was trying really hard to stay perky. All the perk had left my body. My body was dragging by 4:30 when it was time to go home.
I am looking forward to a full nights sleep. Hopefully tonight I will sleep. I may just take a damn sleeping pill and force the issue.
So my hours are 8 to 4:30 which means no commuting with the honey. Which in one way makes me happy because I get that time to myself to prepare for the day but on the other hand the savings in gas money would have been really nice.
Everyone there is really nice. They have a great bit of fun with each other. But let me tell you something right now. There is a lot of work done also. I expect to work my ass off. A lot.
There are about 4 main people in the office.
Me the project administrator
Tim the estimator
Mike the boss
Dave the Project manager
Terri the office manager.
And there is some other random person I haven't met yet who works every other week and commutes from Oregon!!
I did get to do a take off on a set of blueprints that I am 100% sure was a test. A test the boss expected me to fail. Without saying that of course but it was pretty damn obvious. When I handed him the completed set of prints with all the pretty tabs he hadn't asked for and the highlighted areas and quantities I swear to you his eyeballs sparkled and you could see how freaking excited he was to have someone who knew her shit.
*pats self on back gently so she doesn't get a big head.
I just was happy that what he asked me to do was easy. YAY ME!
So now all I want to do is crawl into my bed. And sleep. And do it all over again tomorrow.
Monday, March 8, 2010
GUESS WHAT!!!!!
I have a job!!!!!!!!
I start Wednesday. I am so freaking happy I can't even tell you.
Blogging will be taking place at night now though :)
I start Wednesday. I am so freaking happy I can't even tell you.
Blogging will be taking place at night now though :)
The waiting game
The interview on Friday went ok I think. You never know. I ended up sitting in a room with 3 men as they asked me question after question. Then sat in the room with one guy as he asked about salary. He then told me he was going to "sleep on it" and for me to send him my references.
So here it is on Monday and I wait.
The problem I have is the job they interviewed me for was not the job I applied for. After posting the job they sat down and tweeked what they wanted. So instead of a estimator position that I had applied for they changed it to a project administrator. What that means is I would get to do all the filing and the calling in of purchase orders. I would also back up the payroll person and the receptionist. Pretty much a admin position. Not what I was expecting in the least.
Now don't get me wrong, I can do this job. The work involved would be easy. But it is not what I was expecting.
If the money was there and they offered me the job I would have to take it. It is not like people are crawling out of the woodwork asking me to interview for them.
I do have to admit to being sort of disappointed in the change of duties though.
But either way I have not received a call or a email yet. So maybe the whole thinking is a moot point.
Sazy and I had a great time this weekend looking at houses.
We started out taking a "short cut" over the top of a mountain which was anything but a short cut lol. The beginning of that drive about scared me into peeing myself. Giant cliffs with no fence or rail just a drop off into hell. *shudders.
Once we got to the top it was a stunning drive through green meadows with flowing creeks and happy California cows. At one point we stopped and walked over to some friendly horses to pet them. One fell in love with Sazy and seriously mouthed her up LMAO!!! Obviously these horses were used to someone stopping with a apple or something in their pocket.
This trip was Sazy's turn to tell stories of her youth and I completely enjoyed it. After the 3 hour shortcut we finally made it to a little town for food and a potty break. Then we started looking at houses. We found all kinds of cute little houses. There was one that had stained glass surrounding the front door. The light was just perfect enough to send the pattern onto the wood floor inside.
We decided to go check out the backyard. As we got out of the truck we had noticed two little boys with squirtguns. They decided to play army stalkers and started to follow us while hiding behind fences and bushes.
We walked into the backyard and could hear them creeping up. So Sazy continued to walk into the yard and I hid behind the fence and jumped out at them. Stalking the stalkers lol.
They were good sports and ended up exploring with us.
At one point they were prepared to shimmy under the partially opened garage door so I told them that there were creatures in there that would probably jump on them. They backed away from the garage after that.
One cut his finger and showed his injury to Sazy who was very motherly towards him. CUTE!
We hopped back in the car and headed up to grandmas for the night. We ended up driving through miles of pitch black back roads. I know Sazy thought I had no clue where I was going LOL.
After spending the night with Grandma we spent a incredibly lazy morning just lounging in the sunshine. We then hopped in the car and started the house hunt again.
By the way we are looking for a house for Sazy's mom who is moving here from Virginia.
The first house we stopped at both of us fell in love on the spot. The yard was huge. The house, small and cute. The whole thing was perfect. It was the first house we have looked at that we actually sat there and discussed what we would do with it. How we would paint it. How the yard could be fixed.
We then drove to the next town and HATED it. I think that we were spoiled by the cute house. Although I have to admit it was like driving through the bad part of town in that town. Blick.
We ended up giving up and coming home instead. It was a great weekend!
So here it is on Monday and I wait.
The problem I have is the job they interviewed me for was not the job I applied for. After posting the job they sat down and tweeked what they wanted. So instead of a estimator position that I had applied for they changed it to a project administrator. What that means is I would get to do all the filing and the calling in of purchase orders. I would also back up the payroll person and the receptionist. Pretty much a admin position. Not what I was expecting in the least.
Now don't get me wrong, I can do this job. The work involved would be easy. But it is not what I was expecting.
If the money was there and they offered me the job I would have to take it. It is not like people are crawling out of the woodwork asking me to interview for them.
I do have to admit to being sort of disappointed in the change of duties though.
But either way I have not received a call or a email yet. So maybe the whole thinking is a moot point.
Sazy and I had a great time this weekend looking at houses.
We started out taking a "short cut" over the top of a mountain which was anything but a short cut lol. The beginning of that drive about scared me into peeing myself. Giant cliffs with no fence or rail just a drop off into hell. *shudders.
Once we got to the top it was a stunning drive through green meadows with flowing creeks and happy California cows. At one point we stopped and walked over to some friendly horses to pet them. One fell in love with Sazy and seriously mouthed her up LMAO!!! Obviously these horses were used to someone stopping with a apple or something in their pocket.
This trip was Sazy's turn to tell stories of her youth and I completely enjoyed it. After the 3 hour shortcut we finally made it to a little town for food and a potty break. Then we started looking at houses. We found all kinds of cute little houses. There was one that had stained glass surrounding the front door. The light was just perfect enough to send the pattern onto the wood floor inside.
We decided to go check out the backyard. As we got out of the truck we had noticed two little boys with squirtguns. They decided to play army stalkers and started to follow us while hiding behind fences and bushes.
We walked into the backyard and could hear them creeping up. So Sazy continued to walk into the yard and I hid behind the fence and jumped out at them. Stalking the stalkers lol.
They were good sports and ended up exploring with us.
At one point they were prepared to shimmy under the partially opened garage door so I told them that there were creatures in there that would probably jump on them. They backed away from the garage after that.
One cut his finger and showed his injury to Sazy who was very motherly towards him. CUTE!
We hopped back in the car and headed up to grandmas for the night. We ended up driving through miles of pitch black back roads. I know Sazy thought I had no clue where I was going LOL.
After spending the night with Grandma we spent a incredibly lazy morning just lounging in the sunshine. We then hopped in the car and started the house hunt again.
By the way we are looking for a house for Sazy's mom who is moving here from Virginia.
The first house we stopped at both of us fell in love on the spot. The yard was huge. The house, small and cute. The whole thing was perfect. It was the first house we have looked at that we actually sat there and discussed what we would do with it. How we would paint it. How the yard could be fixed.
We then drove to the next town and HATED it. I think that we were spoiled by the cute house. Although I have to admit it was like driving through the bad part of town in that town. Blick.
We ended up giving up and coming home instead. It was a great weekend!
Friday, March 5, 2010
I have an interview!
In a hour and a half.
Wish me luck guys. I am nervous and excited at the same time!!!
Yesterday was spent running around looking for pants LMAO!
Wish me luck guys. I am nervous and excited at the same time!!!
Yesterday was spent running around looking for pants LMAO!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Dark Art
Being an avid horror lover my entire life has allowed me to see beauty where many others don't. To see and appreciate the fine details some artists put into their works. I understand that most of the artwork I find intriguing is not for everyone. That it makes some people question my sanity. Trust me I have been told that to my face.
But as they say beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
Would I hang this type of art all over my house? No. But I might put a discreet piece here or there. If I lived alone and didn't live with someone who didn't get it.
Would you like to see some? Ok then ready lol
I think I should probably start with the less disturbing to people art first...
(again as with all my stupid pictures click on it to get the full effect thanks!)
This first one is sort of a play on another famous piece. But to me there is something intriguing about it. I wouldn't hang this one on the wall but I enjoy it.
Here is another one I wouldn't hang on the wall but look at the detail involved.
This next piece captures a piece of my childhood so well that I actually had to look away the first time I saw it. When I was younger my great grandparents had a basement. Everything in the picture is exactly as I remember the basement. The stairs were exactly the same. The stone wall was exactly the same. The dust motes. And this picture exactly shows the fear I had that something was waiting to reach through the holes in the stairs and grab my leg. It also didn't help that at the bottom of the stairs there was a doll with glass eyes that glowed in a miniature rocking chair. Or that you had to walk down three steps in pitch black in order to reach the light switch. So no this wouldn't be hung either.
Now let's go a little deeper shall we?
I like this one for some reason.
I really like this one too...
These pieces are pretty cool also
There are so many more that I like that I can't even begin to show you. Now don't get me wrong I enjoy conventional art also but there is a soft spot inside of me for these types of images.
But as they say beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
Would I hang this type of art all over my house? No. But I might put a discreet piece here or there. If I lived alone and didn't live with someone who didn't get it.
Would you like to see some? Ok then ready lol
I think I should probably start with the less disturbing to people art first...
(again as with all my stupid pictures click on it to get the full effect thanks!)
This first one is sort of a play on another famous piece. But to me there is something intriguing about it. I wouldn't hang this one on the wall but I enjoy it.
Here is another one I wouldn't hang on the wall but look at the detail involved.
This next piece captures a piece of my childhood so well that I actually had to look away the first time I saw it. When I was younger my great grandparents had a basement. Everything in the picture is exactly as I remember the basement. The stairs were exactly the same. The stone wall was exactly the same. The dust motes. And this picture exactly shows the fear I had that something was waiting to reach through the holes in the stairs and grab my leg. It also didn't help that at the bottom of the stairs there was a doll with glass eyes that glowed in a miniature rocking chair. Or that you had to walk down three steps in pitch black in order to reach the light switch. So no this wouldn't be hung either.
Now let's go a little deeper shall we?
I like this one for some reason.
I really like this one too...
These pieces are pretty cool also
There are so many more that I like that I can't even begin to show you. Now don't get me wrong I enjoy conventional art also but there is a soft spot inside of me for these types of images.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Why yes.... I do love the smell of dirty fish tank
Not!
Here in my city we have had rain storm after rain storm after rainstorm. More rain then normal. Besides making you get cabin fever I have noticed something else about the rain.
It started about a week ago. That first wiff of WTF is that when I opened the back door to let the dogs in. Since then it has gotten stronger and stronger to the point where the dogs smell like it.
What is it?
Dirty fish tank. Pond scum.
My backyard hasn't been able to dry out for so long it is beginning to smell horrible.
Ok... my mind went on a tangent
Anyone remember the movie where Stephen King was a farmer and got covered in alien mold? That is what I imagine my backyard smells like.
Anywhooo... I have this feeling that I am not going to be able to get rid of the smell for a while since I don't see myself out there with the hairdryer. It is freaking nasty. And really it is bad enough that the yard smells like that but my dogs do too. And they just had a bath less then a week ago.
I honestly wish there was something I could do to fix the smell outside. But I can't make the sun shine. Sigh.
I am going to leave with this video. Seriously watch it all the way through. It is wonderful. It really spoke to my soul for some reason.
Here in my city we have had rain storm after rain storm after rainstorm. More rain then normal. Besides making you get cabin fever I have noticed something else about the rain.
It started about a week ago. That first wiff of WTF is that when I opened the back door to let the dogs in. Since then it has gotten stronger and stronger to the point where the dogs smell like it.
What is it?
Dirty fish tank. Pond scum.
My backyard hasn't been able to dry out for so long it is beginning to smell horrible.
Ok... my mind went on a tangent
Anyone remember the movie where Stephen King was a farmer and got covered in alien mold? That is what I imagine my backyard smells like.
Anywhooo... I have this feeling that I am not going to be able to get rid of the smell for a while since I don't see myself out there with the hairdryer. It is freaking nasty. And really it is bad enough that the yard smells like that but my dogs do too. And they just had a bath less then a week ago.
I honestly wish there was something I could do to fix the smell outside. But I can't make the sun shine. Sigh.
I am going to leave with this video. Seriously watch it all the way through. It is wonderful. It really spoke to my soul for some reason.
Monday, March 1, 2010
Sometimes you just have to laugh at their stupidity
No seriously. You do.
Oh wait... you have no idea what I am talking about right? Well lets go on a little journey of the last few days shall we?
I have been living with someone who obviously needs to take some kind of chill pill. I don't know if he is having a hard time at work right now or what but he is bringing it home and making everyone including the animals avoid him. He walks through the door looking like this....
(not him, random internet picture)
Now I know this is abnormal for him but still it is making me tense. I have tried talking to him but I get the I don't want to talk right now.
Well fine then... UGH.
Anywhooo.... on top of this PMS he seems to be having our neighbors have been fighting like summer normal. I figure it is the warm weather.
Imagine neighbors like this.....
Yelling at the top of their lungs at each other for hours and hours. Yelling that they wish the other one would die. Using every foul mouth statement you can imagine and some you can't.
It enters into your house and feeds any irritability that might exist.
Did I mention that I have been irritable lately? That the man has PMS hardcore?
Yup.... not a great combo.
AND There was a dang live possum on my porch last night
This is the second possum in less then a week. First the dead one my dog was carrying around.I went out to feed the cats and I flipped on the light and it just looked at me. Tried to shoo it and it just leaned down and ate??? a piece of cat food from the night before.
It did have really interesting feet. And sort of a cute nose. But it had no fear at all of me and SLOWLY walked into the flowers in my front yard.
It was very interesting to see first the feral cat mootch walk up onto the porch... look at the possum and you could see his mind say hell no and get off the porch. Then Rusty runs on the porch, looks at the possum, sniffs his/her tail and gets off the porch.
The possum could have cared less about the cats.
<---- would like to not have possums on my porch
(random possum from internet lol)
And this brings us to today. See I think I am at the end of this invisible rope.
So my computer has been having issues. Some stupid pop up thing has been making me insane. Something about file dbgheap.c line 1132. And everything you try to get rid of it the computer locks up. So today I decided I am going to fix this if it kills me.
<----is computer stupid and me fixing things is NEVER a good idea.
So I read a bunch of things and they all seem to point to spyware. So I go searching for free spyware that is recommended by computer geeks. I find one and run it. Then I go to delete it off my computer.
(hide the evidence that I tried (did?)to fix the computer!!)
However.... this little box from the spyware thing pops up with a list of no no sites and things it deleted.
Porn. Yup lots and lots of OMG what in the hell is that porn.
ummmm
<---- doesn't look at porn.
At this point I just had to laugh. I started to get pissed off. I really did but then you know what? It so wasn't worth it. So I laughed. I deleted all the porn files but I still laughed while gritting the teeth.
Will I mention this when he gets home? I don't think so. It is no longer worth it.
What does this mean for my future? I am going to buy MY OWN computer. One that he can't tell me I am screwing up with my facebook games.
Stupidity pisses me off. Don't blame me for the computer being screwed up if you are looking at porn. Every person on the planet knows that porn fucks up computers.
Deep breath.
*rolls eyes...
Oh wait... you have no idea what I am talking about right? Well lets go on a little journey of the last few days shall we?
I have been living with someone who obviously needs to take some kind of chill pill. I don't know if he is having a hard time at work right now or what but he is bringing it home and making everyone including the animals avoid him. He walks through the door looking like this....
(not him, random internet picture)
Now I know this is abnormal for him but still it is making me tense. I have tried talking to him but I get the I don't want to talk right now.
Well fine then... UGH.
Anywhooo.... on top of this PMS he seems to be having our neighbors have been fighting like summer normal. I figure it is the warm weather.
Imagine neighbors like this.....
Yelling at the top of their lungs at each other for hours and hours. Yelling that they wish the other one would die. Using every foul mouth statement you can imagine and some you can't.
It enters into your house and feeds any irritability that might exist.
Did I mention that I have been irritable lately? That the man has PMS hardcore?
Yup.... not a great combo.
AND There was a dang live possum on my porch last night
This is the second possum in less then a week. First the dead one my dog was carrying around.I went out to feed the cats and I flipped on the light and it just looked at me. Tried to shoo it and it just leaned down and ate??? a piece of cat food from the night before.
It did have really interesting feet. And sort of a cute nose. But it had no fear at all of me and SLOWLY walked into the flowers in my front yard.
It was very interesting to see first the feral cat mootch walk up onto the porch... look at the possum and you could see his mind say hell no and get off the porch. Then Rusty runs on the porch, looks at the possum, sniffs his/her tail and gets off the porch.
The possum could have cared less about the cats.
<---- would like to not have possums on my porch
(random possum from internet lol)
And this brings us to today. See I think I am at the end of this invisible rope.
So my computer has been having issues. Some stupid pop up thing has been making me insane. Something about file dbgheap.c line 1132. And everything you try to get rid of it the computer locks up. So today I decided I am going to fix this if it kills me.
<----is computer stupid and me fixing things is NEVER a good idea.
So I read a bunch of things and they all seem to point to spyware. So I go searching for free spyware that is recommended by computer geeks. I find one and run it. Then I go to delete it off my computer.
(hide the evidence that I tried (did?)to fix the computer!!)
However.... this little box from the spyware thing pops up with a list of no no sites and things it deleted.
Porn. Yup lots and lots of OMG what in the hell is that porn.
ummmm
<---- doesn't look at porn.
At this point I just had to laugh. I started to get pissed off. I really did but then you know what? It so wasn't worth it. So I laughed. I deleted all the porn files but I still laughed while gritting the teeth.
Will I mention this when he gets home? I don't think so. It is no longer worth it.
What does this mean for my future? I am going to buy MY OWN computer. One that he can't tell me I am screwing up with my facebook games.
Stupidity pisses me off. Don't blame me for the computer being screwed up if you are looking at porn. Every person on the planet knows that porn fucks up computers.
Deep breath.
*rolls eyes...
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