Thursday, October 8, 2009

When I look in the mirror...

Mama Kat has this writer's workshop where she lists 5 prompts and you pick one and write about it. Well see I have this list I made while grandma was here of blogs I want to do. However, I felt one of the prompts. It made me want to be brutally honest about myself.
So here we go.

When I look in the mirror...

When I look in the mirror I see someone I don't recognize sometimes. Sometimes she is older then me. Sometimes she is fatter then me. Sometimes there is no spark in her eyes.
When I look in the mirror I see someone who needs to do so much more. Someone who seems to have lost something along the way. Someone who is just surviving life instead of living it.
When I look in the mirror I see someone who has settled. Someone who has mood swings from right to left. Someone who doesn't feel they are good enough. Pretty enough. Smart enough.
When I look in the mirror I see a woman who will never have children. Someone who wanted a large family. Someone who is afraid to be alone in her old age.
When I look in the mirror I see fear and sadness. I see loneliness. I see hopeless.

But sometimes....Sometimes...

When I look in the mirror I see hope. I see a person that can do anything they want to. I see a person who is healthy.
When I look in the mirror I see not the fat but the beauty. I see hope. I see family.
When I look in the mirror I see my mother and my father mixed together into someone completely different.
When I look into the mirror I see my whole life ahead of me. The chance to do good things. To really live.

Sometimes I look in the mirror and I just see me.


  1. Wow, thats deep. And inspiring. I might do this on my blog sometime. When *I* look in the mirror, I cannot see *ME*. It never connects somehow.

    You know. I like your blog. I like your honesty. I like you keeping it real. Yeah, you're good.

  2. funny how we see ourselves differently than others see us.

  3. Very deep and true. What we see in the mirror depends on the day, the mood, etc. I wrote about how I like to feel every day - unfortunately I don't always feel that way - but I try to.

  4. Thanks for stopping by my blog. Mirrors have a lot of reflection. Sometimes we want to reflect and sometimes we don't. Great post.

  5. That is so true. We all see different versions of ourselves each time we really look

  6. Awesome job. For a minute there I thought when you were looking in the mirror you were seeing me.

  7. I try not to look in the mirror...its just too much for me most days..but you certainly cant run away from yourself. I get what you feel..


  8. I don't know who that is in the mirror. It's what others see, but I'm so far inside, that's not me at all.

    So I try not to look. :D

  9. This is so beautifully written and so honest. Thank you for sharing it with us.